Maybe having distractions is what I need. My kind of distractions that I need is not just some bullshit distractions. I mean distractions that makes me really forget but still yet be a productive person going through the day.
I know distraction is not really good as good as confrontation but still it is 'healthy' if I say so myself rather than being a total shit to myself feeling it in by sucking it up. For what it's worth, its working.
Yet, I still can't make those big decisions. Small ones can be handled in some sort of ways. I know I suck but this a tiny lil baby steps even tho Ive been doing that all the time. I need to suck.it.up.