tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-418320349260158662024-02-19T22:43:09.371+08:00AsyrafItuSayaAshhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.comBlogger309125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-496877147316098712022-08-29T02:37:00.003+08:002022-08-29T02:37:37.668+08:007 years<p> Hi there,</p><p>Its been 7 years since I last wrote something in this blog and somehow I'm still here rereading all my old posts for some clues of which I have yet to disclose in a way?</p><p>Anyways, its 2:31am and I can't sleep. I've taken melatonin pill but looks like it doesn't do shit and so here I am writing for idk I just feel like writing in this blog.</p><p>Update, I still write poems and I can say actively but I just dont post it here because its really depressing. What has happened in 7 years? A lot, some were good, some well can I say most of the times it wasn't. But Im still here surviving the day.</p><p>Currently an executive, or should I what I usually say to other people which is a corporate slave in communications. Work wise, love what I am doing but still have yet to love the working environment I have been in. Probably I'm just not stable enough to you know deal with it but again Im still here.</p><p>Still a smoker, just more into other things that are bad for my body in a borderline appropriate but it's good I'm self aware about it.</p><p>Okay now I feel like letting everything out but I don't think this is a good platform so till next time.</p><p>Ash,</p>Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-84179383299442325642015-04-15T22:56:00.000+08:002015-04-15T22:56:14.137+08:00Is there?Is there an end to this feelings of not knowing what is wrong?<br />
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Let me know so I could be optimistic again.<br />
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Dont leave me so I could be happy again.<br />
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Cus its been years.Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-50949232431258613552015-01-25T17:31:00.001+08:002015-01-25T17:31:55.688+08:00I wonderI wonder how it feels to be happy,<br />
I forget how it feels,<br />
Someone help me feel it again.<br />
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I can laugh be happy,<br />
But not happy throughout the day,<br />
Someone help me with my day.<br />
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<br />Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-10989273062500321192015-01-07T17:51:00.000+08:002015-01-07T17:51:14.099+08:002015All I wish is to be happy cus 2014 is a shit loads of sadness. With my new study I mean my degree, I wish I'll find more new friends and maybe bestfriend or girlfriend. LOL<br />
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Who am I? Some handsome dude can just smack girl's butt and get the girl attached? LOLOLOL<br />
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I'm hoping that I could get greatest grades throughout my degree and also I'm gonna stop looking for one thing but instead to look for million things.<br />
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Such as friends to hangout. Also I would love to eat healthy and get some fat down. LOL<br />
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I WILL. InsyaAllah<br />
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P/S : I swear this is not a resolutions and shit, maybe it is.. IDONTKNOWSKLDNAKLAshhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-86927791610370610762014-12-30T00:40:00.003+08:002014-12-30T00:40:28.809+08:00Sleep sleepSleep sleep,<br />
Sleep with your pains,<br />
Sleep sleep,<br />
Sleep your pains away,<br />
Sleep sleep,<br />
I sleep with my pains,<br />
Sleep sleep,<br />
Pains won't go away,<br />
Sleep sleep,<br />
To wake up with pain,<br />
Sleep sleep,<br />
To end tonight's pain. Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-70889570295549232512014-12-29T15:10:00.002+08:002014-12-29T15:10:31.470+08:00HurtIt hurts to just feeling the hurts Im feeling. Youre hurting because youre in hurts. Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-46883766602562062152014-12-24T09:22:00.001+08:002014-12-24T09:22:38.929+08:00Thoughts were GoneI'm on a family vacation, with all the problems I have I decided to think this vacation is a "time" for me to really rethink. everything. I thought this vacation worked perfectly well because my anxiety lessen and I can actually sleep.<br />
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Then one night, it hits me. I was bothered with the overthinking while I freaking sleep. I was asleep and then my brain just like hit me with these burdens that made me hardly to sleep well.<br />
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I then told myself. Getaways isnt the shit. I can never run away from it. Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-82643055261548357042014-12-22T11:36:00.000+08:002014-12-22T11:36:21.002+08:00Time Machine everybody?Deep in my heart I regretted knowing this one girl, we were in the point of telling each other's deepest problem to knowing each other. We were able to read our mind or maybe its just me and she didnt or she just didnt care bout mine. LOL?<br />
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Do you ever encounter a tweet cus I have that quoted; <i>you will have/have this one friend who is now a stranger</i>. Yeah, I got that feeling like seriously. Okay let me be honest...<br />
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I got attached and it was so awful I feel like I need a time machine and go back in time and just stay away from her. Plus, she has someone but still throughout that semester we knew each other its so hard for me to forgot. Theres also some 'rumors' that I kinda enjoyed but still rumors are rumors and Im sure as hell not gonna tell what the rumors are.<br />
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A month ago, I did think about her but then she popped up on my whatsapp. I was so relieved and kinda in joy cus hell yeah she remembered me! Apparently, she asked me about her fucking certificate that I need to do(I wasnt supposed to do the certificate for all crews on the CFOF event but got caught up with that. I hate that! SO MUCH) and I still didnt do it cus I wasnt up for it with all these shitty feelings like FOR GOD SAKE I dont even know which major I'm gonna pick next year!<br />
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Looking at her feed on my Facebook wall gives me this suicidal regret(not suicidal enough to do the suicide btw dont worry and this part isnt in this blog deal k jk not jk) and not wanting to even know her. Okay, its totally my fault for getting attached but still, all those regretting was all on me I wished I can just stay away from her. I think thats what you got for being this incapable of filling the physical need of women, you get attached easily.<br />
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My life sucks! YOURE WELCOME! <br />
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<br />Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-61156392772460418042014-12-19T09:44:00.000+08:002014-12-19T09:44:23.350+08:00Distractions of AllMaybe having distractions is what I need. My kind of distractions that I need is not just some bullshit distractions. I mean distractions that makes me really forget but still yet be a productive person going through the day.<br />
<br />
I know distraction is not really good as good as confrontation but still it is 'healthy' if I say so myself rather than being a total shit to myself feeling it in by sucking it up. For what it's worth, its working.<br />
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Yet, I still can't make those big decisions. Small ones can be handled in some sort of ways. I know I suck but this a tiny lil baby steps even tho Ive been doing that all the time. I need to suck.it.up. Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-75940639223965642492014-12-18T08:22:00.002+08:002014-12-18T08:22:10.192+08:00Not-So-Optimistic-AnymoreDo you ever feel like you used to know everything in the future(your future specifically). Now its all gone. Disappearing through the exit door of the cinema hall youve watched cus you will never know the next time you watch movie in the same cinema is going to be the same cinema hall, the same exit door.<br />
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Not being able to make decision sucks. I'm looking a way to solve this big mess in my head and most of the time I feel tired. Tired with all of these problems, I'm such a mess<br />
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For now, I dont know what to do and I know time is gold just this time it is covered with deadly poison with sharp teeth to consume me. When time comes, I get pissed over the think I can't handle. That is just me naturally, I can't accept myself for not doing such a good job over the things I can handle.<br />
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Well to be honest, not just me that Im pissed at. Every people who gets near me and yes this is a mess, Im a mess. Messed up world of a misfit in the world or even universe. <br />
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The real problem is, I couldn't figure out a think. NONE Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-30737167569844871792014-12-16T20:56:00.000+08:002014-12-16T20:56:00.184+08:00Sleepless PressureI feel like talking then noticed that I have no one to talk to. So I decided to hit up my precious blog, so here I am.<br />
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This month is free yet Im still under pressure. I've finished my diploma and now waiting for my result and continuing my study with degree. I can't sleep, I'm tired for not being able to sleep.<br />
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The truth is, I feel sleepy but when Im in bed all these anxieties come and hit me up. I'm so scared, I literally dont know what to do. I googled about it and I read that it can make you crazy. Not crazy in a funny way but crazy, crazy. Even scarier.<br />
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So every night when Im about to sleep the anxiety comes and I was like "Im not crazy, im not crazy im not crazy im not crazy" I dont know..actually...<br />
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This month is the month where I supposed to think about which major I should take for my degree and my future but I cant. Pressure after pressure I really cant function very well. I dont even know what to do. Ive thought of not pursuing my degree but then I was like where do you want to work? AND I CANT THINK OF ANY.<br />
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Im really messed up. Im sorry to myself. Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-13184852377532368932014-11-17T23:49:00.000+08:002014-11-17T23:49:35.214+08:00The Most LiesThe most lies I tell myself all these years are:<br />
"Im okay." "Its okay." "I dont know." and "its gonna be okay."<br />
These lies are lies that I keep saying to myself to find comfort<br />
Yet I know and yet I still doing it. Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-62875593339052155042014-11-06T13:53:00.001+08:002014-11-06T13:53:25.132+08:00It HurtsWatching her hurts,<br />
Thinking of her hurts,<br />
It's like holding the a rose full with thorns,<br />
but yet smell so good to let go.Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-63545926564796977662014-10-30T01:03:00.000+08:002014-10-30T01:03:09.830+08:00Flying ThoughtsSometimes my thoughts are very insanely correct but I managed to comfort myself after hours of having anxiety,swearing, and sometimes 'cry me a river'.<br />
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Thoughts about me flashing back to the "old" me. I mean, I dont know...<br />
I dont want a happy ever after. I want chapters, sequels.<br />
No prequels please cus it would suck the eff out.<br />
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<br />Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-69266965188206890952014-10-26T20:23:00.001+08:002014-10-26T20:23:28.219+08:00One TimeOne time, Ive been asked to close my eyes. To think of a painful past, I thought of it. Then they asked to what do you see in the darkness of your own, are you scared? are alone? I then acknowledge myself to being alone but not scared. What I see me alone in unending darkness with people I know behind me. They asked again to open your eyes if youre scared, I kept my eyes close. Then the time is over and I opened my eyes.<br />
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<br />
Came in thoughts, whether darkness soothes me.<br />
I know I love being alone, but darkness is another thing.<br />
<br />
:)Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-14092308852112842362014-09-27T03:14:00.002+08:002014-09-27T03:15:54.267+08:00To SmileI've heard I've seen,<br />
Don't smile with that teeth,<br />
Told by the people.<br />
<br />
I knew I'm a rebel,<br />
It is what I want,<br />
So I smile.<br />
<br />
I tried once,<br />
Not smiling and take a selfie,<br />
I've seen all of the sadness,<br />
In my eyes.<br />
<br />
People just don't care,<br />
There's no point showing that off,<br />
I'm so kind,<br />
So I smile to let the world smile. Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-23322375685738012152014-09-22T00:49:00.000+08:002014-09-22T00:50:26.913+08:00BRACES! WHAT?!Assalamualaikum and good evening!<br />
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Haaa its been a month++, I told you guys in my previous post that I'll get you up to date after a month. So here it is! It's braces! HoooHaa! Ive been wanting to wear braces since in my middle school actually by that time I know that you can get student price from the gov but my mom said no cus whos going to send me to the dentist every month on weekday because my mom is working(obviously) so I didnt have one until now.<br />
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After so many research on the internet, did some phone calls of clinics around Ampang. I have this fav dentist that I like to go for years cus he did scalling very good but unfortunately he doesnt do braces but then at Ampang Point theres one dentist didnt do a very good job at scalling my teeth tho but to do braces I need to pay half of the full payment so no. LOL! Im a student so I need to find the greatest deal hahahaha!<br />
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Finally, I find this dentist over Facebook page for ppl who wear braces so I give it a call and it is a good deal. So I went to the dentist on 18th of September to get braces and a month a go I did the x-ray thingy.<br />
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<u>Here's the deal:</u><br />
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1st thing first before wearing your braces, you will need to get your teeth x-ray to see what kind of teeth placement you have and how it is going to fix.<br />
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X-Ray and clay thingy where they will you get your teeth printed out of clay(idk whats it called)<br />
= RM250<br />
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and then after a month of waiting, you'll get to meet the dentist and discuss future plans with him but I was asked to get ready just in case I want to wear braces after and I did.<br />
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Braces = RM850<br />
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and then wait another one month to get my four teeth removed(two upper, two lower). I dont know why did the dentist made me wear braces first instead of removing the teeth.As usual I googled it and found that maybe just maybe the dentist doesnt want me to run away. LOL<br />
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ENJOY MY SUPER CREEPY FACE.. =) WITH BRACES =D</div>
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So yeah thats pretty much it, I have braces on now. Even tho most of my friends are like, WHY ARE YOU WEARING BRACES? YOUR TEETH IS GOOD ENOUGH?! WHY? IT HURTS WHY?!</div>
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Here is my answer, I wear because I want to, I've been wanting to wear one and ITS NOT YOUR FREAKING MONEY SO SHUT UP! :) LMFAO</div>
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<u>A hopefully good tips if you're applying to the same dentist as mine which is Klinik Dr.Zarin</u> :</div>
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-Bring your earphones,fully charged mobile gadget/s. As it took hella long to wait for your turn cus theres so many people there.</div>
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First night I was in a lot of pain. I took ibuprofen to help me settle with the pain. It's uncomfortable at first but you'll get used to it. At that night, one time I had my fingers on my braces and try to pull it off because im was so uncomfortable but now Im fine :)</div>
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I tend to be more cautious as I brush my teeth every meal(I usually do it once a day lol). Not awkward smiling but awkward eating at public places as food stuck like motha effin no yesterday and at some point I cover my mouth while chewing(very ladylike LOL) and check on my teeth using my front view comera very often and then selfie! LOLOLOLOL</div>
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Okay, thats all for today. Will update more if Im not too lazy. Thank you for reading! Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-61526518590388197742014-08-18T23:01:00.000+08:002014-08-18T23:01:34.080+08:00So much will be happeningAssalamualaikum and good evening!<br />
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Hey guys! A little life update for you guys on ma blog and it's been a long time(I always said ITS BEEN A LONG TIME). So, so many things will be happening and I'm so excited and blessed even tho it hasn't happen yet. As usual, I can't let you what will happen right now. I'll tell you when it's happening but first one of the thing is I'm on my LAST SEMESTER of DIPLOMA!! WADDDDDDDDUUUPP!<br />
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Yeah, this new semester is the final semester of my diploma meaning I will be holding a scroll next year! By the end of this year. It is all finish! After my diploma, I will be getting my degree. Not sure where yet, most probably at the same place I'm taking my diploma but still I haven't figure out yet.<br />
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I want to focus on my last semester like there's no tomorrow first THEN I'll focus on my degree. SO EXCITING! That's all I think, stay tune for another life update in a month cus that's when everything will be happening is happening!<br />
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<br />Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-78152444590423566692014-08-06T04:50:00.000+08:002014-08-06T04:50:28.985+08:00All MidnightDrove all night,<br />
In tears of unknown,<br />
It won't stop,<br />
Drove all night.<br />
<br />
Tears of unknown,<br />
Unspeakable emotions,<br />
Don't ask,<br />
Didn't wish.<br />
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Tears all night. Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-66145170105820677282014-07-25T00:00:00.000+08:002014-07-25T00:00:16.881+08:00No RayaI used to enjoy raya days. Not anymore, not that I dont wish raya existed is just that. I'd rather not to be with people. Yeah, Ive become more reluctant to enjoy human company. I rarely go out to do something social instead I enjoy having myself on internet. I feel safer sitting at my home. Oh how I wished to have my own house right now. So I can live and enjoy the peaceful house environment. Not that my house isnt peaceful. I just wish to have my really own time. Call me abnormal human being. I dont care. I do what makes me happy. I dont please the society even tho I kinda pleased them in a way of helping. Not that I dont want to please society. Its just that, people, shitty stuff. Hate that.<br />
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Im pretty sure one day with my own job. Id just go visit my mom and dad on first and second raya and on third I will be back for work and do normal stuff. It's just me. It's me. Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-8593886829446686442014-07-07T06:49:00.000+08:002014-07-07T06:49:22.303+08:00Theoretical ShitsMen should not cry, women can cry out loud.<br />
Your partner should have the same similarities as yours.<br />
<br />
Theoretical shits will always be influenced by society made by society repunish yet again from the society.<br />
<br />
:)Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-68247279492579537022014-06-04T02:42:00.001+08:002014-06-04T02:42:18.244+08:00Reliving HappinessEarly this year, I got to go to the world's best place ever(Well it is not certified as world's best but to me it is). As I reminiscing memories going there, I am reminiscing the regrets.<br />
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That day, I am happy and sadly anxious with I dont know what. I tried to 'reliving the happiness' but I just cant and I cant believe that I cant. It's the best place of all time ever in my life but still cant. I tried, and tried. Nothing works.<br />
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I was smiling for a moment and then back into this I-Want-To-Go-Home-So-Bad feeling. It's unexplainable on how can I get anxious in the middle of fun.<br />
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Until now, ever since I reminisce I am full with regrets. Regretting on what happened to me. Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-11884302920547226552014-05-07T23:48:00.001+08:002014-05-07T23:48:17.002+08:00Are you?Are you happy?<br />
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One simple question that would cost you emotions - Me Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-32145026839838205372014-03-08T03:56:00.000+08:002014-03-08T03:56:03.439+08:00AdmittingAssalamualaikum and good evening,<br />
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With the busiest semester I've ever been. I'm going to admit something very shameful(I think). Which is me being alone. I would like to talk about this because you know I think no one wants to hear this sad piece of shit of me in real life. So I decided to talk in here where I don't think someone would read it fully. LOL! Negativity alert!!<br />
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You know, being single for a long time isn't really a great thing especially where you are surrounded with friends who has gf/bf and also seeing the society with partner. Gosh! It kills and I'd be like "LOOK AT THEM, HOLDING HANDS. I WANT THEM DEAD" like what President Snow said in Hunger Games(Hunger Games fan alert!).<br />
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So yeah, I'm all alone. Talking bout this shit also alone. Hooray for me. Achievement unlocked BEING ALONE. But hey, I talked okay. I really socialize but you know no matter you much you've socialized and have fun. You will have that feeling of need having someone to care you and you to care about other than your family which is pretty different(to me).<br />
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Would love to have that goodnight wish, talking about your day, your health, having fun... ehhh im full of shit. Thats why im along. lol? It's been 2 years UNFORTUNATELY. What I can do is just to actually pray to god that I might find someone to enter my life. Also, I have to admit I kinda look forward on building a family. YEAH I KNOW! TOO SOON TOO SOON! But that is the real deal. Somewhere in my life I want to build a family if I found someone.<br />
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<br />I think that's pretty much it. Thats all, thank you for reading my sad,lonely,unfortunate live. GREAT! Now the internet people knows.......<br />
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<br />Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41832034926015866.post-49788538590520458682014-03-03T23:30:00.000+08:002014-03-03T23:30:29.888+08:00iSmileIt's just a smile,<br />
Never been better,<br />
iSmile just like that.<br />
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It can be change,<br />
But not all I can afford,<br />
iSmile just like that.<br />
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I'd like to change,<br />
I'd like to afford it,<br />
iSmile just like that. :) <br />
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<br />Ashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14107931454890949018noreply@blogger.com0